Shinrei Tantei Yakumo - Volume 10 Chapter 27

Chapter 27

Translated by Niulili

Haruka stood in front of a door, who had a plate called <Movie Research Club>.

It was night time, so she was surrounded by silence. There was no student, and it seemed that daytime’s noise was a illusion.

She held the red necklace in her right hand, tight.

She got it from Yakumo before.

Every time she opened this door, various things happened.

There were some hard times. It was not once or twice that she was at risk of life.

She had a lot of sad feelings and she didn’t know how many times she cried.

Still, for Haruka, all of these were unforgettable memories.

She opened this door when she first met Yakumo.

At that time, Yakumo was playing tricks with cards and was cheating, taking money from other students.

The first impression was the worst.

She thought he was cynic, a cold-blooded man who didn’t think of anyone else.

But, it was wrong.

Yakumo wasn’t the only person she met when she opened this door.

Gotou, Ishii, Makoto, Ishin and Nao. Also, this door had brought many encounters.

She would had never meet those people if she had a normal student life.

The beginning of everything might had been this door.

However, this might be the last time she opened this door.

When she thought so, her chest became so painful that she couldn’t breathe. Still, she had to open it. Even if this ended everything, this was the only thing she could do now.

Haruka was standing in front of this door with that determination.

Breathing out, Haruka opened the door.

Yakumo was sitting on a pipe chair, reading a book.

When he noticed the presence of Haruka, he said “Youー”, as usual, with a lazy voice.

Same as usualー That was a terrible feeling of discomfort for Haruka.

“What are you doing ?”

When Haruka asked, Yakumo narrowed his right eye slightly.

“Don’t you see ? I’m reading a book.”

The same reply as usual.

ーNot really.

“What are you doing at such times, Yakumo-kun ?”

Haruka approached Yakumo.

“At such times ?”

Yakumo tilted his head as if he didn’t understood.

Looking at him, a rough and unpleasant feeling spread in Haruka.

ー Really, you don’t know !

Yakumo, which had a habit of knowning everything, it was idiot doing this. No, he was running away.

“You know”

Haruka uttered her voice, but Yakumo’s expression did not change.

“I don’t know, so I’m asking.”

Yakumo opened his arms like a freak.

The rough discomfort eroded further Haruka’s heart.

“Stop fooling yourself that way. Yakumo-kun, you know.”

“What do you want to say?”

“Gotou-san suffered a serious injury and wandered between life and death, but he still escaped from the intensive care unit in search of Nao…”

Even though he shouldn’t be in a standing state, Gotou was desperate to find Nao.

He wanted to save Nao without regard for his own life.

“Stupid…”

Yakumo slightly looked down and spit out.

That word set fire to the anger that had been smoked in Haruka. The rough and unpleasant sensation she had felt so far was probably anger.

“What’s stupid !”

Haruka’s cry echoed in the room.

“Don’t make a loud voice.”

Yakumo muttered.

“Not just Gotou-san ! Ishii-san and Makoto-san are desperately trying to find Nao-chan, but what are you doing here Yakumo-kun !”

She screamed, leaving her emotions of anger.

She wanted to arrive in it. In Yakumo’s heartー.

And she wanted him to notice. What should he doー.

It didn’t matter what he thought of her if Yakumo could notice it. Haruka thought so.

She had never hit Yakumo in this way.

Somewhere in her heart she was afraid of being hated by Yakumo. Therefore, she had not touched on the fact that his left eye couldn’t see.

Butー.

“Searching for Nao is the job of the police. Even if I move, I can’t do anything.”

Yakumo shook his head to the left and right.

He still said that during this period.

“Why do you decide you can’t do anything ?”

“I can’t see them anymore”

Yakumo said.

He couldn’t do anything, so he wouldn’t do anythingー She couldn’t be convinced by such a reason.

“So what ?”

Haruka gazed at Yakumo.

“You know, I can’t do anything without my red left eye.”

Yakumo put his hand on his left eye covered with the eyepatch.

It was incredibly scary that you couldn’t see what you could see until now. He might be anxious and upset.

Yakumo suffered a lot so far, but didn’t let it show on the surface.

She felt sorry for not being able to notice it. Wrong. That was not it. She was aware, but she was afraid of being hated and couldn’t do anything.

Actually, she should had faced Yakumo from the front sooner.

It might had been possible before. However, the closer she became, the more she became afraid to leave.

So she couldn’t say it.

But that was just an excuse. She wasn’t not going to make that excuse anymore.

“Why do you decide that you can’t do anything ? You can do it, Yakumo-kun !”

Haruka said with all her might.

“You don’t know anything”

“What ?”

“Without my red left eye, I’m just a person.”

She felt like she was being pushed off. It seemed like he was saying that she should say nothing more than this.

Haruka in the past might had closed her mouth, but today was different

“Yes. Yakumo-kun is just a person.”

“If so …”

“It’s wrong ! That’s not true !”

“What are you talking about ?”

Yakumo tilted his head.

It was no wonder that he had such an attitude. Haruka herself was a mess of emotions. Stillー.

“Why don’t you understand ? Whether you have a red left eye or not, Yakumo-kun is Yakumo-kun !”

“…….”

“Even if you can see ghosts or not, Yakumo-kun is Yakumo-kun.”

“Don’t say anything fancy”

Yakumo suddenly smiled.

That was an empty laugh she had never seen before.

“I…”

“You’ve been messing with psychic cases so far, because I can see ghosts. No ? If I couldn’t see ghosts, I wouldn’t have met you in the first place. I could see ghosts until now, so you’ve been close.”

“That’s awful … You were looking at me that way …”

Along with those words, tears fell from Haruka’s eyes.

Certainly, their encounter was for psychic phenomenon, and she gad brought in countless psychic cases so far.

But that’s not all. And yetー.

“Are there other reasons ?”

“Surely, I met Yakumo-kun because of a psychic incident. Even after that, I was the one who brought in various cases.”

“So you know.”

“But ! I was beside Yakumo-kun not because you could see ghosts !”

Haruka shouted loudly.

As expected, Yakumo also withdrew slightly as he was surprised.

If she was exploding in this way, he would thought she was a nasty woman. But it didn’t matter.

No matter what Yakumo thought, she couldn’t let down Nao.

Besides, she might be annoying to push, but she did not want Yakumo to be a person who locked in his shell when an important person was in trouble.

Yakumo stared at Haruka with wrinkles between his brows.

Haruka inhaled a breath, held her fist tightly and opened her mouth.

“Yakumo-kun, you had a lot of pain and sad experiences because of his red left eye … So you hate that kind of thing, and you locked yourself in your shell.”

“What do you want to say?”

“By doing so, you’ve kept your weakness away by keeping a distance from others. If you are alone, you will not be hurt and no one will be hurt. You thought so.”

“……….”

“But you’re really afraid to be lonely and you’re constantly involved with others. If you don’t want to hurt anyone, you’d be completely lonely and I can’t do that.”

“That’s terrible words …”

Yakumo made a small sigh.

Haruka spoke also for herself, but she thought it was very harsh words. Butー.

“But that’s why Yakumo-kun is so kind ! You know the pain, you know the sadness, so you can’t leave a troubled person alone ! You’re so kind that you’ll desperately help someone ! ”

“Me being kind is an illusion”

Yakumo replied with a rejection.

Haruka overflew with unspeakable sorrow. The tears that were falling did not stop.

“Don’t say such a sad thing …”

“Why do you cry ?”

“I want to cry ! How many times have I been helped by Yakumo-kun’s kindness ? It’s not an illusion …”

So was her twin sister. It was Yakumo who saved Haruka from her trauma.

That was not all. Even when she almost died in the case of the flood gate, Haruka was saved by the kindness of Yakumo. Haruka was saved by Yakumo’s kindness even when he faced a serious problem when she was in an educational intern. She felt broken.

“I don’t remember helping.”

“Shut up !”

Haruka yelled and slammed the table with both hands.

Her body trembled.

Anger and sorrow alternated, disturbing Haruka’s heart like a storm.

But she couldn’t stop here.

Haruka looked straight at Yakumo.

“No matter what you think Yakumo-kun, I was saved by you !”

“That’s why I say it’s an illusion.”

“Come on !”

“……..”

“I’m not came to like an illusion !”

Haruka’s cry shook the night air.

She didn’t want him to say that her precious feeling she had kept secret were illusions. That was too sad.

She couldn’t see what Yakumo looked like, because her view were distorted by tears.

But, that was fine.

She was not saying something like this in an attempt to fulfill her wishes. She just wanted Yakumo to regain his confidence.

Whether or not he had a red left eye, Haruka’s feelings for Yakumo would not be shaken. It should be the same for Gotou and Ishii. Even Nao didn’t like Yakumo because he had a red left eye.

She wanted him to understand it.

“I liked the twister, the weak one, but stillー the kind person who wanted to save someone and didn’t give up hope. The red left eye doesn’t matter.”

Haruka bit her lip saying that.

Yakumo said nothing. However, the silence flew.

Haruka regained her calmness in the fluffy silence, like being in the water.

She said everything she wanted to say. After this, the decision depended on Yakumo.

This was some harsh words. She was sure that Yakumo would hate her. But that was no use. If Yakumo stood up again ー He could find Naoー.

And no matter how Yakumo felt, Haruka’s feelings wouldn’t disappeared

That’s whyー…

“Please. Don’t lock yourself in a shell in such a place and go find Nao-chan…”

After saying that Haruka opened the door and went out.

The cold autumn breeze stroked her face.

Haruka looked back only once when she closed the door.

She knew that Yakumo was sitting, but she couldn’t see his expression.

The door closed with a clicking sound.

She wondered if she could open this door anymore, and the sorrow that she had spewed up again.

ー But, this is fine.

Haruka told herself so and walked out.